Life Has a Funny Way of Working Out

Holiday MusicChristmas used to be my absolute favorite holiday.  Thanksgiving afternoon, I’d put on holiday music.  December 1st all of my decorations went up.  It was Christmas everywhere!

Then, in 2003, the girls’ dad and I decided our marriage was over, but we stayed together through the holidays for the girls.  We put up a tree for appearances sake.  I put out a few decorations, and went through the motions, hoping the girls didn’t notice my heart just wasn’t in it that year.

Since that year, Christmas has never held the same magic for me.  I spent six Christmases with Brian and his family. That meant that I never decorated my place for the holidays, we always celebrated with them.   Last year, I spent the afternoon with friends who understood just how difficult the day was going to be all alone.

Last week Sam and I went to the local library and I found myself looking for CDs to check out. (I am going to have a wicked music collection) and I found myself in the holiday music section.  There were some of my favorites, Amy Grant, John Denver & The Muppets, Mannheim Steamroller, and a few new; Kelly Clarkson, Faith Hill.

I checked out four CDs that day, and took them home and promptly ignored them.  It was enough they were in the house, I could work my way up to listening to them.   I uploaded them to my phone, and earbuds in listened to them. For the first time in more years than I want to admit, the holidays hold promise of love and laughter.  I am excited about Thanksgiving with Sam’s family, and Christmas with all the kids.

I met with my probation officer this week, and did all that was necessary to move.  As of this week I am officially living with Sam.  Life has a funny way of working out just when you start to believe it never will.

About Becky

While control is an illusion, organization helps to manage the chaos of our lives. Becky was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2007. She has found that when her life and home are organized her bipolar mind is less manic. She shares her attempts at managing the chaos of living with her fiance and tweenage step-daughter, while trying to be a good parent to her mostly grown children who live 2 hours away.

8 comments to Life Has a Funny Way of Working Out

  • Glad it’s all working out!

  • I love Christmas, but this year will be hard for us with so much loss. Wishing you and yours the best possible time.

    (NaBloPoMo-er)

  • I love this entry!! Yay! Life does have a funny way of working out sometimes.. Most of the time we have to get out of the way and let it! Hugs my friend! I am soooo happy for you!

  • Hey there, I found you via the NaBloPoMo blogroll.

    As part of NaBloPoMo I try to comment on as many participating blogs as I can, and I am also adding participating blogs to my feed reader. So I’m just dropping by to let you know I’ve added your blog to my feedreader, whenever you publish a post I will see it. 🙂

    I have created three bundles on Inoreader so that bloggers can easily visit other participating NaBloPoMo bloggers which you can find here –

    http://www.snoskred.org/2014/11/nablopomo-bundles-final-edition.html

    Your blog is in the second bundle.. I also have a link up going at my place so my readers can find participating blogs which you are more than welcome to add your blog link to.

    Looking forward to seeing your posts. You may see me drop by again during November, but it might be December before I finish my first drop by to blogs if I don’t get faster at leaving comments. 🙂

    Happy NaBloPoMo to you!
    Snoskred
    http://www.snoskred.org

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