I Get My Life Back Tomorrow

failure-quoteI am breaking the cardinal rule of blogging… “Thou shall only post once a day in order to achieve world domination”.  Rules are meant to be broken.  I’m a rebel like that.

Tomorrow is my last court date.  There was a list of things that I needed to do before then.  Ah what the hell, I had to get a compliance letter from one court, pay reinstatement fees, and get insurance coverage so that my driving privileges can be reinstated on Friday.  And all of that had to be done TODAY.

When you don’t have a licence and you don’t have a vehicle, your mobility is limited.  You are free to go as far as your feet can carry you, or as far as friends are willing to take you once you beg.  Going to St. Charles today with a friend was ridiculously exciting.  Freedoms everyone takes for granted every single day have been just outside my reach.

Friday, everything will fall back into place.  My legal issues will be resolved tomorrow.  My driving privileges will be reinstated Friday and that will be the end of a very long very unnecessary nightmare.  One that could have been avoided, and will not be repeated. Ever.

I spent my last dime paying reinstatement fees and getting insurance coverage.  My lease will expire next week, and I have no job and no money.

But I have my freedom.

And hope.

And faith.

And somehow, it will work out.  It’s crunch time, and I work best in crunch time.

The finish line?  It’s right there… right in front of me… tomorrow I cross it.  Tomorrow I close a long dark chapter in my life. I take the lesson learned.. that I am too old and way too smart to do this to myself, and start the next chapter of my life.

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About Becky

While control is an illusion, organization helps to manage the chaos of our lives. Becky was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2007. She has found that when her life and home are organized her bipolar mind is less manic. She shares her attempts at managing the chaos of living with her fiance and tweenage step-daughter, while trying to be a good parent to her mostly grown children who live 2 hours away.

3 comments to I Get My Life Back Tomorrow

  • I understand about the not having a car thing. We can’t afford one yet, so we usually take the bus. Not too bad, except at the moment, I am still recovering from a difficult birth and can not walk the 1/5 mile to the bus stop. Ugh. I am glad you got all this stuff taken care of and I am praying that God gives you what you need.

    • Becky

      Not to get all religious on you.. but when i was a child my parents took me to see The Hiding Room, the story of Corrie Ten Boom. Long story short, they were German Christians who hid Jews from the Nazis and ended up in concentration camps for it.
      There is a scene in the movie, as they are being arrested, it’s a flash back to when Corrie is a young child..
      .
      “Father sat down on the edge of the narrow bed. “Corrie,” he began gently, “when you and I go to Amsterdam-when do I give you your ticket?”
      I sniffed a few times, considering this.
      “Why, just before we get on the train.”
      “Exactly. And our wise Father in heaven knows when we’re going to need things, too. Don’t run out ahead of Him, Corrie. When the time comes that some of us will have to die, you will look into your heart and find the strength you need-just in time.”

      That has always stuck with me. God will always provide for me exactly what I need… but only when I need it. Just in time.

      I have been here before, or places similar and I have come through… I will somehow manage to come through this as well.

      And CONGRATULATIONS on little man Jeff!

  • Becky

    Not to get all religious on you.. but when i was a child my parents took me to see The Hiding Room, the story of Corrie Ten Boom. Long story short, they were German Christians who hid Jews from the Nazis and ended up in concentration camps for it.
    There is a scene in the movie, as they are being arrested, it’s a flash back to when Corrie is a young child..
    .
    “Father sat down on the edge of the narrow bed. “Corrie,” he began gently, “when you and I go to Amsterdam-when do I give you your ticket?”
    I sniffed a few times, considering this.
    “Why, just before we get on the train.”
    “Exactly. And our wise Father in heaven knows when we’re going to need things, too. Don’t run out ahead of Him, Corrie. When the time comes that some of us will have to die, you will look into your heart and find the strength you need-just in time.”

    That has always stuck with me. God will always provide for me exactly what I need… but only when I need it. Just in time.

    I have been here before, or places similar and I have come through… I will somehow manage to come through this as well.

    And CONGRATULATIONS on little man Jeff!